Rawr

There is a roar that builds deep in my chest
deafening
I cannot hear, what did you just say?
Your leaving just not today
I'm running but its not to get away
Every time I forget about your needs
The roar becomes claws, making it impossible to breathe
pain
functioning is questionable now
So with tampered settings is it fair
that I seek what I cannot bear
without is a like a withdrawal of air
breathless
Selfish is how I act
I can only apologize for what I lack
a labyrinth without an end
lost
you're my corner stone 
forgive me for taking you

Playing with Tenses

Where are the bells? When will they ring? Had they already come? 
Today is a beautiful day. As the sun rises and moon falls the day is dawn. I am in control of what I say and what I do. What I do is an improvise it is character defining. Even under a schedule or a plan nothing is certain. Influenced,? Perhaps, but for now this is reality.
Tomorrow will be what it may. Forecast of rain? Undoubtedly it will change from what it is right now, but it is nothing to fear. We have faced it, we will always face it. Preparations will be of a minimum. What can be brought into the future? Well that is not in my power.   
Unlike my brothers, I am the past. The yesterday that has questioned, and will watch you. I have answers, data, and examples that could comfort or destroy. But place your trust in another for I am an interpretation. I am a version of your own reflection, so perhaps that is why I like to occupy the present.
The clock strikes.

Reflection

Ah, blasted words
You stick to my tongue
As if you were glue
Yet your paste, though viscous
Cannot stick
My scattered shards
Back together

Such a Silly Notion

Blurried vision
Choices to be made
Why can't I frame this thought
I see why you leave
but with a second glance
Just to weld my mind
Sometimes I just get low
When dreaming
of a land different
What a clever theif you are
to take all at the start
promising away will be far
Like the world is just art

Christina Juert--- A song for You called: More than Survival

The rush of the fall
and the way to disaster
Here you call for a hand
and you receive what you looked for
but is it enough?
We fill our time until there is none left
The order and ciaos can not neutralize each other

(Chorus)
So baby,
I won't let go today
well maybe
there is something wrong with a perfect place
Swept under the current
I think its time to surface
We'll be the world's greatest rival
knowing it's about
More Than Survival

Sweat becomes tears
And the days become years
Reaching a destination
before taking the first step
Do you know where you are
or have you decided to settle
searching for control
even if its over your own soul

(Chorus)


I can live without air
(just breath out baby)
I can see without eyes
(It's all in the mind baby)
I can be full without food
(It won't satisfy baby)
I can go miles without moving
Its not required baby...

Be who you want to be
just don't leave me empty
find out
what is truly a necessity

(Chorus)

you are alive X2

Insecure

Life seems so empty
Whatever the future holds it seems so predicable
Like everyone's ambitions and purpose is similar
Pressure builds as humanity builds its own "survival of the fittest"
I watch as it molds the personalities and lives of friends
is that all there is? That simple?
So here I stand, not alone, just rigid
Weary of the constant tugging
Confused at what plucks the strings of my heart
The past is bendable and for all I know there could be no future
I'm left with the present
trapped in the present
Everything I do now
is happening
its solid, its my decisions
this is the only place I feel stable.
Now how can I fight against these chains
Escape before I reach the prison
Everyone seems so eager to enter
Eager because it is easier
controllable
This is where I now draw the line, my own boundary
I will fight and I will hold on
because this is my life
and I want it to be hard
not for the sake of it being difficult
but for the purpose of actually finding something that has worth
living for the reason
that their is air in our lungs
that we are ourselves yet we are not alone
I am stronger than this
but
I am forced to play by their rules
such a sour joke
we have all become accustomed to that bitter taste
that excuse for personal game
the delightful satisfaction of throwing in an allusion of complexity
to forget
what is reality?

These are the lyrics I would put into this classical song---- "The Promise" by Micheal Nyman ---- not quite finished the end

I am lost unable to run
I'm waiting for a train, knowing it wont come
And there is a storm rising above
Though there are no clouds around
I see your face
and all those fears fade away, we fly away, there is life today
theres something more so its hard to believe its true
That I am standing next to you
And now I promise you through on through I will always be in love with you

The days are long but our time is short
I'll tread the banks of my own heart
I will never be the person I once was
because there is purpose 
knowledge behind my thoughts
I feel there is more then just the sparks
but the water is deep and I have yet to jump

please forgive my delay
because your eyes are leading me astray
I see you are in pieces
because the world can be cruel
know the waves are pounding on my door too

So I promise there is nothing I won't do
I promise to cherish every moment with you
In a world of complexity and confusion
there is no definition or easy reason
a plot unfolded
the story written after the book
its a dream that can't be scripted

so I promise to stand defiantly
I promise to hold you close
and never let go